***Warning: this post uses made-up words.***
Oh man, I've done it again. I won another blog award! This time, I've won the Scribbler Award! Yeesh, I do believe my head has just about swollen to Attack of the Killer Bees proportions. On that note, have you seen that episode of Bear Grylls where he has an allergic reaction to bee stings? Check out the video:
Bear Grylls is almost unrecognisable after bee sting
Yeah, that's my head right now. A big thank you to the three amazing people who gave me this award: Shannon Messenger of Ramblings of a Wannabe Scribe, Eisley Jacobs of Eisley's Ellipses, and Laurel Garver of Laurel's Leaves. Please please be sure to check out their spectacular blogs. I feel so honored, like Queen Elizabeth has just handed me her crown. But now I shall pass on the crown to some other blogs that I've started following recently and have enjoyed *immensely (the crown was a little tight for my swollen head anyway). You'll find those super blog links down below. But first, I'd like to focus on something that Bear's video has inspired me to consider.
In the video (linked above), Bear Grylls, a Born Survivor, tries to explain why he braved the bees to collect honey by stating, "If you risk nothing, you gain nothing." How remarkably quotatious of him. Indeed, Bear did get a big fat honeycomb out of it...but he also got a face full of bloat. Let's get real: Bear wants us to believe he's surviving in the wilderness, but we all know he's got a shiny helicopter waiting around the corner. So why would he risk his well-being for a bit of honey?
Well, he has an audience, for one thing. And doing stupid things like that will gain him more. Swelling up like a blowfish makes for great tv, folks. But this whole episode has me wondering about why I do what I do. I mean, come on--how many blog posts have I written about my writing obsession thus far--me, an unpublished writer? And why do I continue to blog day after day for what is, in the grand scheme of things, a handful of followers (read the next part where I explain how awesome you are)?
I suppose, in a way, writers are driven in much the same way that Bear is compelled to perform amazing feats of stupidosity. And the fact is, I love and treasure every one of my followers--you rock (like, bigger than Bono) with the time and energy you've devoted to reading my lit'l old blog (seriously, overwhelming generosity people--I so ♥ you). It's a bit of an addiction, really, to put out words and have others absorb them, maybe even comment on them. This blog is like a taste of what it might be to actually get paid to publish. I don't know--maybe I'm the only one who checks back day after day, hoping for a posted comment. I can't even imagine what I'll be like when I actually publish novels. I'll be a wreck waiting on reviews and sales numbers.
Is it a vanity thing? Maybe. But I think there's more to it than that. I wrote silently for years, never showing my work, never discussing it. And yet now that I begin to put myself out there, I long for a sense of validation, as if it might actually give value to the years I've committed to my quiet words. Just like Bear, perhaps, I'm trying to legitimize what might otherwise be a pointless obsession. I don't want my writing to fall silently in the forest. Of course writing has value all on it's own--it's what I taught my students who would ask, "who cares about audience? No one will read this except you."
Who cares, indeed?
So...why do you blog? Why do you write? What drives you to keep going? For my part, I'm insanely grateful for other bloggers like Shannon, and Eisely, and Laurel, and for all of my followers who offer me that bit of honey to offset the face full of bloat.
Now, check out these super blogs who are more than deserving of the Scribbler Award and their own bit of honey:
1. Karen Hooper (she has one already, but she's totally worth mentioning anyway)
2. Don of warm fuzzy freudian slippers
3. Alexandra Shostak
4. Sara Fraser
5. Harley May
6. Tamara Heiner
These are all blogs worthy of a position on your blog roll. So please be sure to stop by and check out their brilliance. Just beware you don't get blinded by the glare of awesomeness glinting off their shiny words. Support them and give 'em some sugar.
*My apologies to Ninjadillo.