Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Angels are Falling...WTF
Okay, I'm seriously freaking out right now. Seriously. And not in that, OMG I just won a free taco at Rico's Taco Shack way. So, I'm scrolling down my blog roll and I come across a post titled, "Caution: falling angels," which at first I saw as fallen angles and wondered why someone would write about geometry, and then snapped out of my LSD-like haze to realize that this is a message sent down from above. Okay, actually it was sent by Jade at Jade Hears Voices (Jade, by the way, is awesome).
Of course, I click on the link because I have a manuscript about fallen angels (not fallen angles, if you're wondering), and "Caution" has just caused my heart to plummet into my stomach. I'm reading, reading, my eyes widening, and my brain screaming, "YES YES!! I totally get this." And my spirits have sunk anew. And I.am.afraid.
In short, it seems everyone (except maybe Peter and Jude who are totally been there done that) is writing a book about fallen angels, and I'm now screwed*.
So, you should read Jade's article, yeah? Go ahead, take a moment. You'll see that Jade is touching upon one of the most basic human fears--that someone else will come up with your idea first**. And then you will have to read about it. And know that all of your efforts have been wasted. And that you suck as a human being.
You should know, I wrote about this same sort of topic not long ago. You can check it out HERE, too. This blog post was an obvious effort to talk myself out of my doldrums at having just written a book that paralleled others on a topic that EVERONE (except Peter and Jude) is writing about. And you know, I did a pretty banging job of it for a while, even convinced myself that I was still an almostcool Immortal sans Im***.
So, why the sudden return to doldrums, you ask? Just because of one blog post? Actually, I don't know that it's so sudden. Even last night, as I finished up The Hunger Games (at 2 AM and totally worth it), I thought, OMG AETERNUS sucks I'mabigfataccidentalcopycat. And seeing Jade's message from above sort of drove it home. But it isn't just the fallen angel premise that concerns me. I'm also seeing all sorts of other parallels with other story ideas, and this is effing killing me. I feel like the world's most unoriginal turdhead. I mean, come on, Ron Popeil did better than this with his Ronco Rotisserie, and let me tell ya, chicken's been done before.
So yeah, I'm freaking out a little bit. But you know what is really weird? When I'm actually reading AETERNUS, I don't feel like this. While reading/editing it, I'm reminded how incredibly awesome I am. It's only when I'm away from it that I remember, once again, that I'm still just a turdhead wannabe. The real kicker is that I thought I was soooo clever with my deviation from vampires. So what can I do? What? I mean, do you beat yourself up like this? Or (gulp) is this just a sign that I should quit? I'm thinking Stephen King doesn't walk away from his manuscripts calling himself a turdhead, seeing his stories as a reflection of what's already been done.
Dang it...I want to be the copied, not the copier.
Sobby sob sob. Sniff.
Sometimes, I wish it didn't matter to me so much.
*Hyperbole: Obvious and intentional exaggeration that implies the great depth of human experience such as, "Good God, that melon head is bigger than Oprah's wallet."
**This fear runs just behind starvation, drowning, and clowns.
***Writing sentences like this is what keeps me in the almostcool category.
Posted by Carolina M. Valdez Schneider at 1/05/2010 12:08:00 PM
Labels: writing, publish, rejection fallen angels Aeternus copy writing fears parallels trends