And then I got the news that we'd had a death in the family. That two people I love very much had just suffered a very tragic, very devastating, unexpected loss.
Things were kind of tough for a while. Less for me than for others. But.
I was still so sad, you know?
So. I haven't posted. I made lasagna instead. Like a stupidhead. Like that fixes a damn thing. Like their freezer wasn't already packed full of food.
Then yesterday, I went out by myself. Sat in my car in a parking lot listening to the windshield wipers going swish swash, swish swash. I rested my head on the steering wheel and watched headlights pass by.
Eventually, my thoughts turned from the funeral to my children. How Bigger Bean said to me the other day, "I'm glad you're not like other moms." How Little Bean likes to brush my hair with lotion and reach into my coat pockets digging for Hershey Kisses. How my radio is almost always set to Radio Disney and how my calendar is jam packed with my children's names and how there's almost always a light on in my house or noise to remind me how not alone I am.
Right around the time I remembered my children laughing about their creative alterations to the lyrics of Jingle Bells, I realized: 2011 is not The Year of Suck. It is merely 2011, in which Suck happened right along with Awesome. Here's the epiphany I had:
Suck can only outweigh Awesome if I press a thumb to Suck's scale.
So. I chose: happiness. And then I went home.
2012, be there suck or awesome, I'm going to be happy then, too.
P.S. Here's a bunch of other stuff.
Dude. I'm on Inky Fresh Press. Bridgid Gallagher, editor and founder of IFP, interviewed me, asking really pointed questions about my upcoming trip to Haiti. Some of those questions were super hard to answer. Some of them...uncomfortable? But also awesome. It wasn't until this interview that I really even had an inkling of why. Or even stopped to think about how it all came about. If you're curious, wondering WTF someone like me is even going to do in a medical work camp in Haiti...and what I hope to accomplish there, well, go visit Inky Fresh Press. It's all there, all the stuff I didn't post in my Haiti blog post.
But don't check out Inky Fresh Press just for my interview. See what Bridgid and others have to say about writing and publishing. They also host author interviews and giveaways--and they're currently looking for guest bloggers for next year. Cool, yeah? Go go go!
book deal. Here--check it out (click on the image to see the full display).
WOOOO-HOOOOOO!! I'm a little late to wish them both well, but I hope they'll forgive me. Although I'd be just as thrilled for them even if they held a grudge (which they won't, because they're amazing). Can't wait to read this new series. Sounds supreme.
MAJOR congratulations to Robin Bernstein Reul on her new agented status! Robin recently signed with Bill Contardi of Brandt & Hochman Literary. YES!! Way to go, Robin! Best wishes on this next leg of your publishing journey...
MAJOR congratulations to Shelli Johannes-Wells (S.R. Johannes) on the release of her new YA UNTRACEABLE, which debuted at #10 on Amazon's Hot New ebook Releases. Fantastic! So happy for Shelli!
Okay, that's all for now. Come back tomorrow. I've got something for you.